C is not for cookie

At least not in our house. It stands for colic which Cam seems to have. He has very fussy times in the early morning and the early evening. It is very hard to just hold him and have him scream no matter what we try and do to help him. Sometimes we can do things to help him, but more often there is nothing to do. Rich is having a hard time dealing with the crying for no reason and it is stressing him out. I try and just relax and get thru it, but the first time it was very hard and I cried right along with Cameron.

Cameron had his first real bath yesterday. He wasn't too mad when we did it and of course we got some pics to embarrass him with later in life.

Cam is starting to turn his head when he feels like it and is getting more control if his neck. That is fun but also hard when we are trying to burp him and he decides to turn his head himself.

The stroller came in finally and we put it together Friday. I hope to take him on walks now that it may stay nice and not as windy.

Daycare called and one of the families is not coming back after the birth of their second child so we are in right away in June when I go back to work. That is a big relief for us. I really wasn't looking forward to having my mom watch him for that long. This way he will get into the day care routine at a younger age which will hopefully help him with the transition. I know nothing will help me with the transition. Rich thinks I won't go back to work. I just don't think that is possible.

Declaration - No relatives week

So I have declared this week as a no relatives week. The step in-law pissed me off yesterday with a stupid comment so I think that if they are going to be pissy and mean about us not coming over when we already have plans, then they have to go a week without seeing Cameron. The other thing that makes me angry and sad is the fact that Rich and I have been married almost 8 yrs and all the in-laws have visited and/or called more in the past two weeks then they have in the past 8 yrs. It is almost like we aren't important until we have a child and then we are interesting enough to visit. Of course then all the attention is on Cam and all they want to do is hold him and annoy me. And when they come over no one offers to help with anything even if I am folding laundry or paying bills right in front of them. I feel weird asking them to help since I feel like we are being judged as it is on our parenting ability.

We had to spend last Tuesday cleaning the house and making it very presentable for the in-laws coming to visit. It made me sad that the last full day Rich had at home, we hoped Cam would sleep for a long time so we could get more cleaning done. Probably why at 1.5 wks post partum I started really having problems again. The nurse said to take it easy or I won't heal. Easier said then done.

So I am opening up the invitation to our friends to come and see Cameron. I am so excited to have you come see him and to see all of you. I feel like we have been cooped up from the outside world for long enough. Just give us a call or e-mail so we can set things up.

Also I was able to log into the Expectnet poll on the blog to post the winner of the game to guess the stats for Cameron. You can just click on the picture to see who won.

Thanks

Thank you so much everyone for all the supportive phone calls, e-mails and comments about the breastfeeding issues. You have no idea how much that meant to me. It was so hard and such a hard decision to make. I truly appreciate all the support.

Cameron is doing so awesome. He is back to birth weight plus a couple ounces. He is a pretty good baby. He is sleeping fairly well and when he is alert it is so fun to talk to him and interact with him. He does smile at us even though I know it is involuntary, I still enjoy it.

Rich is back to work part time and Cam and I are hanging out together while he is at work. Rich will be working full time next week. I am dreading that time next week. It is nice to have the help for part of the day.

Random Thoughts

Things are going as well as to be expected with a newborn at our house. Cameron is so cute and adorable. I am so in love with him. The first few days were rough but we are all learning more about each other and what works for us.

Breastfeeding is just not going to go for me. I had a feeling that this might happen, but it is still disappointing to me as it is something I really wanted to do for him. He will not latch on and my milk is just not coming in at all. My last two pumpings I got nothing on the left and only enough for the bottom of the bottle on the right. He is going to be a formula kid. I have come to except it now, so please don't flame me. I am my own worst critic and have beat myself up enough on this already.

I know a lot of you that read this blog are friends in real life as well. We really want you to see Cameron and come hang out with us for the adult interaction, but we are getting so bombarded with family that we are really getting tired of it today. So please know that we love you guys and want to see you and for you to see Cameron, but we need a break from visitors. Hopefully this week things will die down with the visitors as he won't be as new and the family visitors will be satisfied for a while.

Rough

Things are pretty rough right now in the Burns' household. Much to be expected with a newborn. Cameron is absolutely adorable and we are just trying to get things figured out. We are amazed at how exhausted we are and how tiring our little guy can make us. Breastfeeding is not going well, but I got some great help today that will hopefully fix things around again. Cameron got too dehydrated on Thursday so we had to break down and supplement him with formula. That was a hard blow to take for me, but my milk is starting to come in so hopefully we can fix the issues.

Sometime soon I need to post my birth story. It truly was an amazing experience. Just what I had hoped for and more. In case some of you didn't know I had a natural child birth which I never thought I would be able to accomplish, but I did it. Cameron was also born in the water in a big jacuzzi tub.

Mrs Spock, the water birth truly was the best experience for us. I hope you get to have yours too.

By the way, I have been Hep.arin shot free since Saturday night at 7:00. It was so thrilling to turn that alarm off on my phone.

Cletus is here!!!

Announcing the long awaited arrival of Cletus now known as:

Cameron David
Born April 14, 2008 at 12:42 pm
6 Lbs 6.5 ozs
19 in long

We are so in love with our little man already. We are all home and doing well. Billirubin is a little high so going to the peditrician tomorrow. Now here is what everyone is waiting for . . . pictures

Cletus time

Headed for the hospital now. Contractions are getting closer and more intense 4-5 min apart. Hopefully he will be here soon. No internet at the hospital so we will try and get updates when we can. I am an emotional mess, but so happy & excited. Send us some easy labor vibes. Thanks everyone!!

Last Day and Due Date

Today is Cletus' due date. He obviously didn't get the memo that he can come out today. Actually he can come out any day. We are so ready for this to be over. I am actually going to change our answering machine message for our family that keeps calling to say something snotty about the baby not being here yet and we will let them know when he is here. We are both tired of that.

Today is my last day of work for 10 full weeks!!! I am so excited. Everything is caught up and I am ready to go. Just have to tidy up a little bit and put everything on out of office. I am so excited. Now it would be just perfect for him to show up this weekend so I don't waste any of my time without him here.

It is just so unreal to me that today is the day. I never thought we would get here. Hopefully soon we will be holding Cletus in our arms and looking at his little face. This has been an amazing journey and I want to thank everyone for their support. I hope you will stay with us for the next part of the ride. I am sure it will be thrilling as well.

Dr Appt Today

Now according to the Dr I am 1 cm and 100% thinned out. This is the same Dr that checked me last week so I think I trust him more. Today was much more pleasant for checking me as well. I told Dr W about the horrible experience I had with the nurse in triage. He asked me her name and what she looked like. He made a comment that he didn’t know what she was feeling. Anyway, my contractions on the monitor were 2-5min apart. They were pretty intense as well. Dr W said he would be surprised to see me in the office next week. He is the same one who said he thought it would be last weekend and it wasn’t so I am not taking much stock in his opinion.

Dr W said if I was more dilated he would break my water this week to put me into labor, but he said if I was here next week he would definitely do it then. So there is an end in sight.

Bragging Rights

This is totally off topic, but who wants to hear me complain about Cletus still not being here? No one? That’s what I figured.

Rich & I did a fantasy hockey league for the second half of the season. I sucked big time at it. A friend of ours did a college basketball bracket online so I decided to take my chances there. Every year I have paid to have a bracket I loose big time. This one was free. Guess who won?!?!?! I did!!! I also have a world rank of 182 out of at least 45,000. I am very proud of myself since I have never won or come close any other year. My guesses were totally random and done at the last minute. I beat Rich by only one point, but I still beat him.

Yeah!!! Thank you Kansas!