Wednesday, September 5, 2007

Relax? Not Likely

So just when things start to get a little comfortable, my body decides to throw me for a loop. I think I have finally come to the realization that this is just never going to be normal. It really sucks that I can't enjoy this pregnancy at all. All I do is worry. I worry if the spotting of brown blood today is a problem. I wonder if these cramps are really cramps or just stretching. With having a new job I can't really take any time off yet. The spotting never got really bad & it has basically stopped, but I am still so worried. I think the cyst burst last night because I felt a kind of ovulation pain on the right last night. Then the spotting started first thing this morning.

This is just so hard right now. I feel stupid worrying or complaining because I think people will say, you asked for this. Or you are the one that wanted this so bad. Yes, I do, but I don't think I deserve this worry either.

Just wanted to say congrats to Mrs. Spock on her pregnancy on a natural cycle. Hope you can return the meds or find someone else to use them. You are so psychic in your abilities. She said that she would get pregnant soon after I did, so it makes sense. I just wish she could be psychic on whether Cletus is going to make it or not.


julie said...

All we know is what our own history has shown. your history, not so good, therefore you have every right to worry. it's natural and I think it just shows how much you love this baby already!

Jason said...

Hey Jenn,
It's only natural to worry given what's happened in your past. I now for Devon and I the worry is always there still, I think that as you get a little further along it lessens it days but I think Devon would agree with me that it will probably never go away until the baby is actually born. If anybody tells you to quit complaining I'd give them a few choice words and walk away. Nobody would have the right to tell you that.


MrsSpock said...

I think your cyst explanation sounds reasonable...

Anonymous said...

Jenn - Argh. I spotted too so I can imagine what you are going through. How are you now? Hope it stopped and you're feeling well. Thinking of you!