Registry is done. That was something that had been weighing on my mind. I am so thrilled it is finished, for now anyway. I may be doing some revisions before I send out shower invites.
I was really proud of Rich & I. Neither of us was thrilled or excited to do the registry. The day started out with Rich being crabby so I didn’t have high hopes. Once we got to the big baby store though it went very smooth. We had a list and some items already picked out. We got it done in about 2 hrs. Then we had to wait for them to finalize it at the end. We didn’t crab or fight at all. We did have to take a break half way through, but that is getting to be the norm for me lately anyway. Getting harder & harder to keep up the pace of old.
Some friends or ours had their little boy on Wednesday. He is absolutely adorable. It was so weird to go and see him and hold him. It was a very real reminder that things are starting to kick into gear for me next. His birth seemed so far off & now he is here. Congrats to Jason & Devon on their little miracle Gabriel Phenix!!
Monday, January 28, 2008
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
Information Overload
So Cletus is actually going to be born soon. I know this seems like a duh moment, but to us I think it is finally starting to sink in. We toured the hospital this week and we both talked afterwards that it was one of those, holy crap we are going to be having a baby here very soon moments.
We ordered the furniture this week as well. That was an ordeal in and of itself. I think we were there for 2 hrs!! We knew what we wanted; we even picked out the glider and ottoman and got that as well. Unfortunately the glider and ottoman are being discontinued so guess who got to drive to Columbus on their day off to get the ottoman? If you guessed Jenn, you are correct. That was a very long & tiring drive with some confusion at the end, but I made it & got the ottoman. The rest of the furniture will be here in a couple weeks. That means it is time to drain the waterbed & paint the stars. I found a template for the star so we are good to go there. I just need to pick a color.
I have started organizing clothes for Cletus. We have all sorts of sizes since I have been buying some winter stuff on clearance now. I can’t believe how cheap stuff is right now!!! I can’t pass up a 15.00 sweater for 2.50, plus they are so cute!!! I can’t wait to dress him up when he gets here.
I also put the deposit down for daycare for Cletus. I went to tour the place that Rich loved on Monday. I wasn’t feeling that great so I wasn’t paying too much attention so it was a good idea that Rich had already gone. He has a spot starting 9/29, but we are no. 1 on the waiting list. The director told me there is a good chance we could get moved up before then. I am really hoping that is the case. I want to get him into the daycare and the learning routine as soon as possible.
My Dr appt this week was really good. PAP was totally negative!!! So I truly think my theory is correct for the abnormal one. Also I passed the glucose test. I was so shocked!!! I thought for sure with the PCOS and insulin resistance there was no way that would happen. The nurse told me the number though and it was a clearly passing number. No anemia either. I am measuring perfect even though I am not very big at all. Dr. H said that things were going perfect and not to worry. Easy for him to say.
We ordered the furniture this week as well. That was an ordeal in and of itself. I think we were there for 2 hrs!! We knew what we wanted; we even picked out the glider and ottoman and got that as well. Unfortunately the glider and ottoman are being discontinued so guess who got to drive to Columbus on their day off to get the ottoman? If you guessed Jenn, you are correct. That was a very long & tiring drive with some confusion at the end, but I made it & got the ottoman. The rest of the furniture will be here in a couple weeks. That means it is time to drain the waterbed & paint the stars. I found a template for the star so we are good to go there. I just need to pick a color.
I have started organizing clothes for Cletus. We have all sorts of sizes since I have been buying some winter stuff on clearance now. I can’t believe how cheap stuff is right now!!! I can’t pass up a 15.00 sweater for 2.50, plus they are so cute!!! I can’t wait to dress him up when he gets here.
I also put the deposit down for daycare for Cletus. I went to tour the place that Rich loved on Monday. I wasn’t feeling that great so I wasn’t paying too much attention so it was a good idea that Rich had already gone. He has a spot starting 9/29, but we are no. 1 on the waiting list. The director told me there is a good chance we could get moved up before then. I am really hoping that is the case. I want to get him into the daycare and the learning routine as soon as possible.
My Dr appt this week was really good. PAP was totally negative!!! So I truly think my theory is correct for the abnormal one. Also I passed the glucose test. I was so shocked!!! I thought for sure with the PCOS and insulin resistance there was no way that would happen. The nurse told me the number though and it was a clearly passing number. No anemia either. I am measuring perfect even though I am not very big at all. Dr. H said that things were going perfect and not to worry. Easy for him to say.
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
Absence makes the heart grow fonder
Does it? I certainly hope so. Sorry about my blogging absence. Work is getting super busy and I am too tired in the evenings now to catch up.
Rich is leaving me for a trip this weekend. I would like to know when I get my turn. I went on a trip without him about 6 yrs ago, but I could use a little trip away. Maybe I can talk him into that for my birthday, hmmmm. A spa trip would be excellent. Hint, hint.
So the most amazing thing happened the other night. Cletus was moving and kicking like crazy. I told Rich to come over and feel him. Rich felt a couple big kicks and then he started with the really light kicks. Rich couldn’t feel those so he just laid there with his head on my belly. Then he said he was hearing the kicks!!! And he really was. He would tell me when he heard a little thud and I felt it at the same time!!! That was so cool!! And something only Rich can do too. I couldn’t believe he could actually hear the kicks just with his ear next to my belly. Cletus also rolled his hand/foot in my belly and basically punched Rich in the side of the head. That was really funny too. I just couldn’t stop talking about how cool it was.
We had a scare last night. Cletus is usually very, very active in the evenings, but yesterday he wasn’t at all. I tried several things to wake him up. Nothing was working though. So we dragged out the Doppler. Rich was able to find his heartbeat pretty quick and wouldn’t you know, that little booger started kicking me hard just then. I told Rich we are in so much trouble. He is going to be super stubborn, just like mommy & daddy.
I am in the third trimester now and I can tell it. I am starting to get the waddle going on when I get up from sitting after awhile. I am starting to feel more pelvic pressure and pain. I also am getting bigger. The other day during a work meeting I looked down and was trying to figure out where my big belly came from. I need to take another belly pic soon. I only have the one so far.
My baby shower has been scheduled and all planned out. I am actually excited since it is exactly what I want. My mom is upset about it, but she’ll get over it. If not, it isn’t going to be my problem. As my sister said “This is all about the baby not the old people. Screw them.” That’s why she got elected to host!!
Rich is leaving me for a trip this weekend. I would like to know when I get my turn. I went on a trip without him about 6 yrs ago, but I could use a little trip away. Maybe I can talk him into that for my birthday, hmmmm. A spa trip would be excellent. Hint, hint.
So the most amazing thing happened the other night. Cletus was moving and kicking like crazy. I told Rich to come over and feel him. Rich felt a couple big kicks and then he started with the really light kicks. Rich couldn’t feel those so he just laid there with his head on my belly. Then he said he was hearing the kicks!!! And he really was. He would tell me when he heard a little thud and I felt it at the same time!!! That was so cool!! And something only Rich can do too. I couldn’t believe he could actually hear the kicks just with his ear next to my belly. Cletus also rolled his hand/foot in my belly and basically punched Rich in the side of the head. That was really funny too. I just couldn’t stop talking about how cool it was.
We had a scare last night. Cletus is usually very, very active in the evenings, but yesterday he wasn’t at all. I tried several things to wake him up. Nothing was working though. So we dragged out the Doppler. Rich was able to find his heartbeat pretty quick and wouldn’t you know, that little booger started kicking me hard just then. I told Rich we are in so much trouble. He is going to be super stubborn, just like mommy & daddy.
I am in the third trimester now and I can tell it. I am starting to get the waddle going on when I get up from sitting after awhile. I am starting to feel more pelvic pressure and pain. I also am getting bigger. The other day during a work meeting I looked down and was trying to figure out where my big belly came from. I need to take another belly pic soon. I only have the one so far.
My baby shower has been scheduled and all planned out. I am actually excited since it is exactly what I want. My mom is upset about it, but she’ll get over it. If not, it isn’t going to be my problem. As my sister said “This is all about the baby not the old people. Screw them.” That’s why she got elected to host!!
Wednesday, January 9, 2008
Dr Appt Update
Dr appt yesterday was pretty uneventful. I did have the PAP done. Dr. H was gentle and now it is over for a few months. No spotting or bleeding so I feel good about that. Got the lab slip to do the GD test. Not looking forward to that as I expect to fail and have to take the 3 hr test. Thank you PCOS and family history for that one. All my other symptoms, aches and pains are all normal. I am on every 2 week appts now. When did that happen?
Still having morning sickness. Every time someone asks me if I am feeling better and not getting sick anymore and I agree, then I get sick. It’s like Cletus is mocking me and getting all sarcastic already. Yikes!! We are in so much trouble.
The bedding is arriving today. I am so excited about that. I can’t wait to get home and look at it in person. I hope I still like it.
We are signed up for childbirth, newborn care and infant CPR classes. They start in the next couple weeks. This is getting so crazy!!!
Cletus decided on Monday night to have a 3 hour party in my belly!!! He was kicking, punching and moving non-stop. He kicked so hard one time I jumped. I think he was angry about the OSU game too!!!
Not much else going on with us. Boring can be a good thing though. I think we are going to drag ourselves to register by the end of the month.
I also wanted to say thanks to those of you that have commented lately. I was beginning to think maybe no one was reading anymore. That would be ok, I know things are pretty boring right now. I hope they will get more exciting in the next couple months.
Still having morning sickness. Every time someone asks me if I am feeling better and not getting sick anymore and I agree, then I get sick. It’s like Cletus is mocking me and getting all sarcastic already. Yikes!! We are in so much trouble.
The bedding is arriving today. I am so excited about that. I can’t wait to get home and look at it in person. I hope I still like it.
We are signed up for childbirth, newborn care and infant CPR classes. They start in the next couple weeks. This is getting so crazy!!!
Cletus decided on Monday night to have a 3 hour party in my belly!!! He was kicking, punching and moving non-stop. He kicked so hard one time I jumped. I think he was angry about the OSU game too!!!
Not much else going on with us. Boring can be a good thing though. I think we are going to drag ourselves to register by the end of the month.
I also wanted to say thanks to those of you that have commented lately. I was beginning to think maybe no one was reading anymore. That would be ok, I know things are pretty boring right now. I hope they will get more exciting in the next couple months.
Monday, January 7, 2008
Update
I think I am going to just make this a mass update on the things happening over the past couple weeks. There is some stuff going on, but nothing too interesting.
Next Dr appt is tomorrow. Will schedule the glucose screening then. Supposed to have my PAP too, but I am going to try to wiggle my way out of that until after Cletus is here. We will see how successful I am tomorrow. I also got a letter from the new Dr stating there is a pre-pay for delivery, but I don’t have to pay it now. They gave me the option so it is one less bill to have to deal with later. We also have a deductible which I was not aware of so that was good to know. At least they aren’t going to hound me and call me about the money every month like my last Dr office did.
I think the biggest thing is that we have Cletus’ room cleared out. Rich & I didn’t even fight once, which is amazing. I think we finally have a system worked out so we don’t have to get on each other anymore. Everything has been removed except for the waterbed and a book shelf that is staying in there. I can’t even believe we did it in just a couple weekends. If I ever get the nerve up I may post the before pics on here. It is pretty embarrassing, but it is what it was. I hope to get the waterbed out sometime this week.
We ordered the bedding this weekend. It should be here sometime in the next couple weeks. We also have a painting scheme in mind now, so I am excited to get the bedding here to match the paint up and get started. It is just going to be decorative. The walls will stay the same color I think. I reserve the right to change my mind. Sorry Rich!!
We went and bought a bouncy seat at Tar.get on Saturday. It was so weird to pick it out & put it in the cart. We returned stuff from X-mas so we decided to buy the bouncy seat with it. It is very cute. I can’t wait to put Cletus in it.
We have also picked out a daycare for Cletus. That was the most stressful and at times terrifying thing we have done so far to get ready for Cletus. It is so hard to decide on a place to basically raise your child while you are at work. I think Rich is going to do a big post on this at some point, hopefully soon. I should point out though, that I am totally trusting him and going on his recommendation since I haven’t been to this particular place yet. I plan to visit in the next couple weeks though.
Time is really starting to fly by now. The 1st & 2nd trimester really drug by I think. Now the first trimester is next week. We have a lot to do to get ready to bring Cletus home, but we are doing good so far.
I have been thinking of starting a website to update family about the baby. If I do that it will be private, but I will let everyone know about it.
Next Dr appt is tomorrow. Will schedule the glucose screening then. Supposed to have my PAP too, but I am going to try to wiggle my way out of that until after Cletus is here. We will see how successful I am tomorrow. I also got a letter from the new Dr stating there is a pre-pay for delivery, but I don’t have to pay it now. They gave me the option so it is one less bill to have to deal with later. We also have a deductible which I was not aware of so that was good to know. At least they aren’t going to hound me and call me about the money every month like my last Dr office did.
I think the biggest thing is that we have Cletus’ room cleared out. Rich & I didn’t even fight once, which is amazing. I think we finally have a system worked out so we don’t have to get on each other anymore. Everything has been removed except for the waterbed and a book shelf that is staying in there. I can’t even believe we did it in just a couple weekends. If I ever get the nerve up I may post the before pics on here. It is pretty embarrassing, but it is what it was. I hope to get the waterbed out sometime this week.
We ordered the bedding this weekend. It should be here sometime in the next couple weeks. We also have a painting scheme in mind now, so I am excited to get the bedding here to match the paint up and get started. It is just going to be decorative. The walls will stay the same color I think. I reserve the right to change my mind. Sorry Rich!!
We went and bought a bouncy seat at Tar.get on Saturday. It was so weird to pick it out & put it in the cart. We returned stuff from X-mas so we decided to buy the bouncy seat with it. It is very cute. I can’t wait to put Cletus in it.
We have also picked out a daycare for Cletus. That was the most stressful and at times terrifying thing we have done so far to get ready for Cletus. It is so hard to decide on a place to basically raise your child while you are at work. I think Rich is going to do a big post on this at some point, hopefully soon. I should point out though, that I am totally trusting him and going on his recommendation since I haven’t been to this particular place yet. I plan to visit in the next couple weeks though.
Time is really starting to fly by now. The 1st & 2nd trimester really drug by I think. Now the first trimester is next week. We have a lot to do to get ready to bring Cletus home, but we are doing good so far.
I have been thinking of starting a website to update family about the baby. If I do that it will be private, but I will let everyone know about it.
Monday, December 31, 2007
Future Musician??
I don't know if it is coincidence or that Cletus really can hear what is going on outside of his cozy womb, but it seems like every time I am somewhere that music is playing he starts kicking me like crazy. He has pretty good taste so far so that is good. Although that is probably due some to my influence to what I listen to. I bought a baby MP3 player for him/Rich for Christmas and I put it on my lap to play it & he started to kick me. Then the other day driving home from work the radio was playing Rolling Stones and then Nickelback. He was kicking along, but went crazy with Nickelback. That's my boy!!!
I hope everyone has a wonderful new year!! Rich is running a race tonight at 11:45pm. I will be cheering him on from the warmth of the house. I am so happy that 2008 will be the year we have our little one!!
I hope everyone has a wonderful new year!! Rich is running a race tonight at 11:45pm. I will be cheering him on from the warmth of the house. I am so happy that 2008 will be the year we have our little one!!
Wednesday, December 26, 2007
Happy Holidays
I hope everyone had a wonderful holiday. I am back to work today. Boo!!! Rich is still off so I hope he is enjoying his time today.
We had a pretty good holiday. The telling that Cletus is a boy went fairly well. Although I mist say I was disappointed that Rich’s family didn’t figure it out. Maybe it is because we told them we weren’t sure if we were going to find out. But we had to explain to them why the bibs were blue. Everyone was very excited. I didn’t make my mom want until the end; I gave her that present first. She ripped into it like you wouldn’t believe. People talk about me ripping open presents, but she had nothing on me yesterday. I think my family was very excited Cletus is a boy. Although my mom had bought boy & girl outfits she did talk about how cute the girl one was & how she looked for shoes to match. My sister also wrote him a poem which was so neat and so emotional!!
Well we didn’t get exactly what we wanted. I had wanted just Bab.ies.r.us GC this year. I want to go purchase the new nursery furniture soon. We got a couple, which will help us out. We also got a ton of stuff for Cletus. I think that my mom will be going crazy with boy stuff now that she knows. Cletus is going to be styling for sure.
Rich got me that new back massa.ger that is supposed to be like a real therapist. I hope it helps out. I will probably be trying it out after work today. I am not used to be being stuck in a chair for 8 hrs; it has been 4.5 days since I have had to do that.
Doing both of Rich’s family in one day went pretty well. It was just a long day for me. I started having a breakdown around 9:30 that night. We had been gone since 11:00 am and I knew there would be a big mess to come home to because it was just too long for our dogs. I was so tired and ready to go home, but the games and prizes weren’t over yet.
My parents bought a pack.n.play for their house for Cletus. It is pink and gray. It doesn’t really mater since he won’t know what color it is; I just thought it was funny. My dad & Rich did a test run of it to make sure all the parts were there and went together correctly. It was hilarious. Both of them decided they didn’t need the instructions and would just go off the picture. I took lots of pics of the work in progress. I haven’t laughed that hard in a long time. At least Rich has experience now putting one together and I think he had fun putting it together too. It was sort of weird thinking that that is for our baby and we will have something to put in there in April.
Cletus is definitely moving and kicking more and more every day. He has really started moving his limbs across my belly, kind of like in a dragging motion. That feels so bizarre!! That movement freaks me out a little when he does it. I put the TV remote on my belly the other night and you can see it move when he kicks. Rich hasn’t been able to feel him much lately. It never fails that when Rich puts his hand on my belly, Cletus stops kicking. Even if he has been kicking in the same spot for a few minutes. He just doesn’t want Rich to feel him moving around.
Overall, the holidays this year went pretty well. I can’t wait until next year for Cletus’ first Christmas!!!
We had a pretty good holiday. The telling that Cletus is a boy went fairly well. Although I mist say I was disappointed that Rich’s family didn’t figure it out. Maybe it is because we told them we weren’t sure if we were going to find out. But we had to explain to them why the bibs were blue. Everyone was very excited. I didn’t make my mom want until the end; I gave her that present first. She ripped into it like you wouldn’t believe. People talk about me ripping open presents, but she had nothing on me yesterday. I think my family was very excited Cletus is a boy. Although my mom had bought boy & girl outfits she did talk about how cute the girl one was & how she looked for shoes to match. My sister also wrote him a poem which was so neat and so emotional!!
Well we didn’t get exactly what we wanted. I had wanted just Bab.ies.r.us GC this year. I want to go purchase the new nursery furniture soon. We got a couple, which will help us out. We also got a ton of stuff for Cletus. I think that my mom will be going crazy with boy stuff now that she knows. Cletus is going to be styling for sure.
Rich got me that new back massa.ger that is supposed to be like a real therapist. I hope it helps out. I will probably be trying it out after work today. I am not used to be being stuck in a chair for 8 hrs; it has been 4.5 days since I have had to do that.
Doing both of Rich’s family in one day went pretty well. It was just a long day for me. I started having a breakdown around 9:30 that night. We had been gone since 11:00 am and I knew there would be a big mess to come home to because it was just too long for our dogs. I was so tired and ready to go home, but the games and prizes weren’t over yet.
My parents bought a pack.n.play for their house for Cletus. It is pink and gray. It doesn’t really mater since he won’t know what color it is; I just thought it was funny. My dad & Rich did a test run of it to make sure all the parts were there and went together correctly. It was hilarious. Both of them decided they didn’t need the instructions and would just go off the picture. I took lots of pics of the work in progress. I haven’t laughed that hard in a long time. At least Rich has experience now putting one together and I think he had fun putting it together too. It was sort of weird thinking that that is for our baby and we will have something to put in there in April.
Cletus is definitely moving and kicking more and more every day. He has really started moving his limbs across my belly, kind of like in a dragging motion. That feels so bizarre!! That movement freaks me out a little when he does it. I put the TV remote on my belly the other night and you can see it move when he kicks. Rich hasn’t been able to feel him much lately. It never fails that when Rich puts his hand on my belly, Cletus stops kicking. Even if he has been kicking in the same spot for a few minutes. He just doesn’t want Rich to feel him moving around.
Overall, the holidays this year went pretty well. I can’t wait until next year for Cletus’ first Christmas!!!
Friday, December 21, 2007
Almost 2 years ago
It is so hard to believe it is this time of year again. Almost 2 years ago I had my first D&C and we lost BB. Then 1 yr ago we started on the cycle that we conceived Autumn. It hasn’t even been a year since I lost her. It is unreal that those angels moved into our lives and touched us like we could never imagine. I still think about them often, especially this time of year. Also whenever I see a child that age, it tears me up a little inside.
I am sure many people would think that I should be happy & let them go. I am 24 weeks pregnant with a viable, lively little boy who will be here in April. Don’t get me wrong, I am very happy to have him in my life and my belly. But the loss of our angels doesn’t go away. The pain may subside and I may not think of them as often, but they will never be far from my heart or memory.
I have read stories of women who still have pain and sadness 20-30 years after a miscarriage. It really never does go away. I plan to tell Cletus about BB & Autumn when he is older. I want to be honest with him and tell him about the other two and what happened with us. Why we are older then the rest of his classmates’ parents. (UGH!!!) I want to be more honest with him in every way then I feel my parents were with me. I just recently found out that my parents were on the way to an adoption seminar when they found out they were pregnant with me!!!
Unfortunately due to the double family Christmas tomorrow, we won’t make it to the angel statute. Hopefully we will soon after though.
I think that this time of year and remembering BB is why I have been a crab and so emotional this week. I also have to go to the hospital to get my Hep.arin today which is bothering me as well. Same hospital and entrance as both D&Cs. In the back of my mind and on my calendar the reminder of BB is there. Still raw & real, but a little less painful this year.
I am sure many people would think that I should be happy & let them go. I am 24 weeks pregnant with a viable, lively little boy who will be here in April. Don’t get me wrong, I am very happy to have him in my life and my belly. But the loss of our angels doesn’t go away. The pain may subside and I may not think of them as often, but they will never be far from my heart or memory.
I have read stories of women who still have pain and sadness 20-30 years after a miscarriage. It really never does go away. I plan to tell Cletus about BB & Autumn when he is older. I want to be honest with him and tell him about the other two and what happened with us. Why we are older then the rest of his classmates’ parents. (UGH!!!) I want to be more honest with him in every way then I feel my parents were with me. I just recently found out that my parents were on the way to an adoption seminar when they found out they were pregnant with me!!!
Unfortunately due to the double family Christmas tomorrow, we won’t make it to the angel statute. Hopefully we will soon after though.
I think that this time of year and remembering BB is why I have been a crab and so emotional this week. I also have to go to the hospital to get my Hep.arin today which is bothering me as well. Same hospital and entrance as both D&Cs. In the back of my mind and on my calendar the reminder of BB is there. Still raw & real, but a little less painful this year.
Monday, December 17, 2007
100th post!!! A Christmas Wish for the Impossible
Are the holidays over yet? This year I was actually happy and excited for Christmas time. I haven’t fought with anyone shopping & have been pretty cheerful when thinking about the holidays coming up. One reason is that this is the last year we have to travel on Christmas Day. Next year it will be staying home all day and having an open house for family. Whoever comes comes. It won’t hurt our feelings if you don’t. Chances are we will have seen them anyway on a different day. Next year will be shopping for the new little one & first Christmas stuff.
This year was looking to be a good one as well. Immediate families for Rich’s Mom & Dad separately on the 22nd, 24th extended dad’s family and 25th my family. Getting it mostly over early is great. Then we can relax on the mornings of the big days and get ready for all the family stuff.
Then yesterday happened. We got all the 22nd stuff worked out early and we were excited. Then the crap happened. Rich’s step-mom threw a fit because we were doing his mom’s before hers & we would get there late. We have to be at his dad’s between 3 & 5, but no later than 5:00. I guess they are going to lock the door then & not let us in. Anyway, I think it is funny that this time of year Rich’s family throws fits about seeing us. The other 10 months of the year they seem to care less. Now I am sure once the baby is born, they will be all over us, but for now there doesn’t seem to be any care or concern for us. They only call or e-mail about a favor needed or a family party coming up. I know they care, but we are the responsible ones, so they tend to leave us alone. This is how we like it. That’s why next year is going to be such a shock for me. All of the sudden getting phone calls constantly & visits are going to drive me bananas. So anyway, our Christmas plans went from happy & simple to sucky & complicated in a few hours.
But I cannot leave the other half of the complex out either. My family is not being very happy this year either. I called with a time to come over for Christmas to my mom and she asked me if she had a choice. She does, but I knew that everyone but her has to go to work the next day. I was trying to make it earlier so that we could spend quite a few hours there and not have to leave so soon. Anyway she is just mad because I am making her wait to find out what Cletus is. None of our family knows except for my sister and Rich’s brother & wife who are due in March. Since we are both having boys we needed to talk about names & stuff. I told my mom I was making her wait for the very last present which will be a blue grandma bib from Cletus. She keeps telling my sister it sucks & is crabby with me. I may just give it to her first and get it over with. She is going to be upset it is a boy anyway. She had already given Cletus a girl’s name a long time ago because she hated the name Cletus.
So tis the season for good tidings & cheer. This is how it is every year and next year will be a million times worse. I really wish it didn’t have to be this way. I remember Christmas being fun and happy times when I was younger. All my grandparents came over to our house at the same time & celebrated the family and the time of year. It is so sad that this is what it comes to for me: a time of year I wish would just hurry up and pass so that I don’t have to have the grinch on my back for another 11 months.
This year was looking to be a good one as well. Immediate families for Rich’s Mom & Dad separately on the 22nd, 24th extended dad’s family and 25th my family. Getting it mostly over early is great. Then we can relax on the mornings of the big days and get ready for all the family stuff.
Then yesterday happened. We got all the 22nd stuff worked out early and we were excited. Then the crap happened. Rich’s step-mom threw a fit because we were doing his mom’s before hers & we would get there late. We have to be at his dad’s between 3 & 5, but no later than 5:00. I guess they are going to lock the door then & not let us in. Anyway, I think it is funny that this time of year Rich’s family throws fits about seeing us. The other 10 months of the year they seem to care less. Now I am sure once the baby is born, they will be all over us, but for now there doesn’t seem to be any care or concern for us. They only call or e-mail about a favor needed or a family party coming up. I know they care, but we are the responsible ones, so they tend to leave us alone. This is how we like it. That’s why next year is going to be such a shock for me. All of the sudden getting phone calls constantly & visits are going to drive me bananas. So anyway, our Christmas plans went from happy & simple to sucky & complicated in a few hours.
But I cannot leave the other half of the complex out either. My family is not being very happy this year either. I called with a time to come over for Christmas to my mom and she asked me if she had a choice. She does, but I knew that everyone but her has to go to work the next day. I was trying to make it earlier so that we could spend quite a few hours there and not have to leave so soon. Anyway she is just mad because I am making her wait to find out what Cletus is. None of our family knows except for my sister and Rich’s brother & wife who are due in March. Since we are both having boys we needed to talk about names & stuff. I told my mom I was making her wait for the very last present which will be a blue grandma bib from Cletus. She keeps telling my sister it sucks & is crabby with me. I may just give it to her first and get it over with. She is going to be upset it is a boy anyway. She had already given Cletus a girl’s name a long time ago because she hated the name Cletus.
So tis the season for good tidings & cheer. This is how it is every year and next year will be a million times worse. I really wish it didn’t have to be this way. I remember Christmas being fun and happy times when I was younger. All my grandparents came over to our house at the same time & celebrated the family and the time of year. It is so sad that this is what it comes to for me: a time of year I wish would just hurry up and pass so that I don’t have to have the grinch on my back for another 11 months.
Tuesday, December 11, 2007
It's a Boy
Hello, Rich here, it has been a while since I have posted. I know everyone already knows Cletus is a boy, but I haven't shared my point of view. The ultrasound was again really cool. We got to see Cletus again which is always fun and exciting. We were able to see internal organs like kidneys and we saw his spine, hands, fingers, fingernails (he has finger nails already! Hopefully he doesn't get my bad habit of tearing them off.). So anyway, we go through all the measurements, head size, femur bone, humerus bone, etc... and then finally she says do you want to know the gender (after it is already frozen on the screen so good thing we said yes to that). And the tech said, there's your answer. It was exciting to find out, but there was no celebration or relief on my part. I was truly indifferent with a girl or a boy, so there was the excitement of finding out, but no lift or let down because of the baby's gender. I guess it was a disappointment to Jennifer that I didn't show more excitement. As days go by, I think of more and more things that would be father-son activities and I get excited looking forward to those times. Much of my thoughts have reflected on special memories I have of my Dad when I was a kid and I can't wait to be on the other side of those same kinds of moments with Cletus. I also think of things like some of the scenes in Dan in Re.al Li.fe that make me relieved the baby is not a girl. I would be 100% lost trying to deal with that kind of emotion and crazy logic. Hopefully it was exaggerated for the sake of the movie.
In more exciting news than finding out the gender, I actually felt Cletus kicking last night. Jennifer had been telling me for the past couple of days she could feel him on the outside with her hand, but every time she told me about him kicking and I rushed over to try and feel it, he would stop. Last night though I just laid in bed, resting my hand in place, patiently waiting. That's when it happened. It was so cool, it made me feel a stronger connection to him. As if we had our first interaction or something. But every time something exciting happens like an ultrasound or feeling him kick, I get impatient and want him to come out into the world now. I'm normally a very patient person, but not with this.
In more exciting news than finding out the gender, I actually felt Cletus kicking last night. Jennifer had been telling me for the past couple of days she could feel him on the outside with her hand, but every time she told me about him kicking and I rushed over to try and feel it, he would stop. Last night though I just laid in bed, resting my hand in place, patiently waiting. That's when it happened. It was so cool, it made me feel a stronger connection to him. As if we had our first interaction or something. But every time something exciting happens like an ultrasound or feeling him kick, I get impatient and want him to come out into the world now. I'm normally a very patient person, but not with this.
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