Background

As you can see Rich was very excited to use the geek portion of the blog & of course complain about it. Hope fully he will keep making posts to this blog as it is for both of us since we are in it together.

Anyway, here is the story for those that don't know it. It will be long so bear with me. It is also nice to get this out too as we have decided to come more out of the IF (infertility) closet to friends. Family is another story :-)

Rich & I have been trying to have a baby for 3.5 yrs. Yep you read that right. I even know the exact date, how sick am I? The first year was fun, but messed up. I had 4 cycles that year. Yep, my body was messed up. I thought it was just from coming off BCP after 10 yrs. Nope, not so lucky. I was diagnosed with PCOS (Polycystic Ovary Syndrome) May 2005. Started on Metformin then. I also found out I was not immune to chicken pox. Never had them yet. So I had to get my second shot, which meant having to wait 3 months. I only waited 6 wks though. My OB had Rich tested as well. He had low morphology, which is a funky shape to the sperm. It was not good. Sorry Rich had to tell your stuff too. Anyway, we started Clomid & IUI (Intra Uterine Inseminations) in September 2005. I got pregnant the second cycle in October 2005. Blood levels were ok, but first U/S (ultrasound) right before Thanksgiving was not good at all. The baby had implanted in the wrong place, was measuring a week behind & no heartbeat. We were devastated to say the least. Dr. T scheduled us for a follow-up US in 2 wks. To say there was no hope was an understatement. 2 wks later I go in for my US by myself because Rich had to work & couldn't get out of it. Amazingly, there was a heartbeat. And a head & body; arms & leg buds. I was thrilled & cried afterwards. I now know that the heartbeat was too slow. My OB Appt was scheduled for 2 wks later at 11 wks, right before Christmas. Dr. T tried to find the heartbeat with the doppler. He kept saying he thought he found it, but not for long enough. Dr. T wanted to do an ultrasound in the office, he tried on my belly but nothing was showing. Then he tried the, how to put this, vajayjay one & it was broken. Right then I kept saying to Rich something was wrong, Rich said the machine was broken & it was fine. I think deep down I knew what we would find. My heart was pounding on the drive to the US center. They took me back & the nurse wouldn't show us anything. Then she went to get the Dr so we both knew what had happened. He came in and showed us there was no heartbeat & nothing that looked like a baby anymore. We went back to Dr. T office to discuss the options. I knew I wanted a D&C so that I didn't have to miscarry on my own weeks later since my HCG (hormone for pregnancy) was still so high. I had my D&C December 22, 2005; three days before Christmas. How I functioned I have no clue, but no one even guessed the pain we were going through. We lost our first angel that day & some hope with that. Dr. T said to wait 5 months before trying again. That was a long 5 months, but May 2006 finally came around. 2 yrs, 2 months of trying for a baby. Ok this is getting too long, so I will post the rest of the story later. Plus as a writer to keep your audience's attention, you have to leave them hanging right? :-)