HCG blood test was positive. Progesterone was good as well. The nurse said it was a good positive & not from the HCG shot. I am still freaked out & in disbelief. I think after the second draw on Monday I may feel differently. It all feels very surreal at this point to me. I just can’t get excited yet.
Started the Heparin shots last night. Already got a little bruise from the first one. Did them myself & it is not pleasant at all. It burns going in & I feel it. It is going to be a long 8 months. But if it gets me a live baby in the end, I am ok with it.
I freaked out after the results yesterday. I told Rich I wasn’t ready. I am not ready for the spot checks, symptom checks & moments of freak out for the next months. I know I will never be ready for another loss.
Rich is very confident. He opened the bottle of scotch last night & said third times the charm. Every time it has been a different liquor that he has saved special for the occasion. Rum from the cruise, bourbon from Kentucky & Scotch this time.
I wish I could feel that confident already. I hope in time I will get to that point.
I am having pre-AF symptoms right now. I don’t even know what to say anymore. I didn’t want to post this at all, but Rich said I should. I am so scared right now.